This blog is where I'm going to keep track of my punishments..
I have a few friends who like to read my regular blog and they are not necessarily into BDSM
and I didn't think it was fair for them to have to read about this part of my life.
I'll post just a small blurb in my regular blog letting people know I posted here about something.

Everything I post here is done between two consensual adults.
There is no abuse involved at all.



Thursday, June 30, 2005

ok. I'm kind of unsure about something...
I've never actually been in a real-life D/s relationship that mattered to me as much as this one does..

actually ...this is my first real-life one i've ever been in. I've had 2 other Masters..but they've been online.. I've never met them face to face. and even though i cared about them and wanted to please them...this is different.

Masters new to the lifestyle.. and he's learning as he goes along..but believe me..he's good at it...lol

here's what happened tonight...well ..actually..it started last night..so that's where i'll start.

last night Master and i were talking on the phone like we always do...and i was being my usual smart alec self.. but playfully..not disrespectfully at all. and he happened to make a comment about not liking the distance between us because he can't punish me as soon as i do something wrong..

well..that got me to thinking... (which sometimes isn't a good thing...as you'll all see...lol) and being the good little slave that i am.. I decided to "help" Master with his learning a little bit.
When i got up in the morning before work i decided to do a little research and send him some links and stuff about long distance punishments etc.. (now...looking back on this...i can see how utterly stupid this was of me...given the situation that happened to me tonight..lol) but i never claimed to be a genius..lol

so today... he got the links..and read them.. and asked me questions and i answered them truthfully of course.. and apparantly he learned a lot... lol

earlier tonight we were on the phone again and i was teasing him about something...and he decided to try out one of the things he learned today..
he had me get my plug out and i had to wear it for 20 mins while talking to him on the phone..

now part of me was shocked...part of me was excited..and part of me was in a way pissed..

is it normal to be pissed or upset or a little peeved about something that i actually want..and crave and need?


i'll probably write more about this later..as i process the thoughts running through my head..
i just have one last thing to say here...

I love you Master.....
and Thank you for caring about me..

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