This blog is where I'm going to keep track of my punishments..
I have a few friends who like to read my regular blog and they are not necessarily into BDSM
and I didn't think it was fair for them to have to read about this part of my life.
I'll post just a small blurb in my regular blog letting people know I posted here about something.

Everything I post here is done between two consensual adults.
There is no abuse involved at all.



Monday, July 18, 2005

Punished again..


Last night I upset Master. He read my blog and got upset with me about 2 things that I posted. One was the Work Crap post and the other was the Some good news! post.

He was upset about the work crap post because i was doubting myself and putting myself down. which is a big no no. so i got punished for that, and he was upset with the Some good news post because he doesn't want me to jump the gun and get my hopes up and then have something happen and then be disappointed. I have a hard time handling disappointment like that. So he's worried I'm going to get hurt emotionally.

as a punishment.. i was told to get my vibrating egg and lay it on my clit.. but i wasn't allowed to cum. he drove me nuts. talking dirty to me.. calling me dirty names..knowing how wet and turned on that gets me.and constantly reminding me not to cum. just when i thought i couldn't possibly take anymore...he'd tell me to remove the egg. I'd start to get my breath back and come down a little..all the while he was talking to me and asking me questions about why i felt the way i did.. why i wrote the things i wrote etc.. then when he thought i was calm enough he had me put the egg back! he kept bringing me right to the edge..and pulling me back..never letting me cum. He must have done that at least 3 or 4 times..maybe more..i lost count actually. over and over again he did that. I thought i was going to go crazy. i kept begging and pleading and he wouldn't let me cum! :(

Finally after what felt like hours he said Yes! and omg it was Huge! lol..

I'm sorry Master.. for putting myself down and doubting my abilities. I know i can do the job. I've been doing it for almost 6 weeks now. I promise to try and not doubt myself again...

and i'm sorry I let my enthusiasm and excitement at the thought of us finally being together to get the best of me. I know it's not definet that you'll be able to be here on that day. and i know better than to let myself get my hopes up. I'll try and do better about that too oK?

Blogged by Christina @ 2:46 PM
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