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I'm kind of torn about it thought..and i know Master is too (we've discussed it a little bit) He likes it when i'm being playful and doesn't want me to feel like i can't be playful with him..but he doesn't want me to think i can be disrespectful either. It's a very fine line between the two sometimes... I also got punished for missing my bedtime. although in my defense..I had asked for an extension and he granted it. No time was specified as to how long the extension was for... but i will admit...i pushed it a little.. ok i pushed it a lot. I didn't conciously doing it on purpose though. I didn't think to myself ..ohhhh i'm going to stay up as late as i want etc.. It just kind of happened. I had a friend over and we were going through my music files and just chit chatting and time slipped away from us...The next thing i knew it was 6am. Master says no more extensions. :( This whole rules thing is taking a lot of getting use to lol...part of me wants to stand up and say ..ok I'm an adult here..i can make my own decisions. I've been doing it for years.. yada yada yada. but another part of me really yearns for someone to care enough about me to make rules for me. to help me take care of myself. so i know my boundaries. etc.. it's like an internal war going on. lol Not sure if I'm explaining this right. grrrrrrrrrrrr I gave Master the name of another Dom he can talk to and ask questions of. I think it's a good thing for him to talk to other Doms and see how they handle things. I know it's helped me talking to other submissives and slaves. This journal is a big help also because it lets me sort out the thoughts and stuff going through my head. It also lets Master see inside my head too.. Since he reads this.
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